Stepping In Faith

What God Joined Together: Part One

• Stepping In Faith • Season 1 • Episode 25

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Have you ever experienced a connection with someone that defied logical explanation? Our testimony reveals how God orchestrated a meeting between two unlikely people, creating an unbreakable spiritual bond that neither of us initially wanted nor understood.

In this raw and vulnerable episode, we share the remarkable journey of our God-ordained relationship. From our first encounter at an apartment complex parcel locker to the supernatural events that eventually led to our marriage, our story demonstrates how divine orchestration often operates beyond human understanding and timing.

What makes this testimony particularly powerful is that neither of us was immediately attracted to the other in the conventional sense. Walter describes being drawn to "something inside" me rather than my outward appearance, while I actively resisted any relationship after emerging from an abusive marriage. We take you through the challenging period of separation where Walter experienced intense spiritual encounters – regular dreams, visions, and even the audible voice of God repeatedly confirming that I was his wife.

This episode dives deep into spiritual warfare, unconditional love, and the biblical truth that a man's ministry begins with his wife and family. We share how God used our relationship to facilitate healing, spiritual growth, and ultimately establish a foundation for our shared purpose. The supernatural events that brought us back together after months of resistance reveal God's persistent work even when we fight against His divine plan.

Whether you're single, dating, married, or questioning God's design for relationships altogether, our testimony offers hope that sometimes what appears as incompatibility or resistance might actually be part of a greater divine orchestration. Subscribe now and share this episode with someone who needs encouragement that God is still in the business of writing love stories that transcend human understanding.

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Walter:

Welcome back to another episode of Stepping in Faith, where, together, we explore the importance of having a relationship with God and how that relationship with God can impact the relationship you have with others. I'm your host, walter. I'm joined here alongside my lovely wife.

Shanea:

Shania.

Walter:

We don't have any notes this week. This is what episode 25? Mm-hmm. Any notes this week? This is what episode 25? Mm-hmm. So I guess the way we started off is in prayer. I prayed last week, right.

Shanea:

I don't remember, I think I did Okay.

Walter:

I think I prayed last week, so it's my lovely wife's turn to pray, lead us in. Did? Okay, I think I prayed last week, so, as my lovely wife's turn to pray, lead us in prayer. Woman of God, prophet seer.

Speaker 3:

Father God, we thank you for this day. We thank you for your love, your grace and your mercy. Father God, we ask that you will open up our followers and listeners' eyes and ears to hear and see what it is that you're saying. In the mighty name of Jesus, we pray Amen.

Walter:

Amen, that was a very short prayer. You look beautiful tonight.

Speaker 3:

Thank you, so do you.

Walter:

Beautiful.

Speaker 3:

Handsome Beautiful.

Walter:

Handsome. Okay, I appreciate you, babe. I might always be looking better with you. Just be kind of glistening.

Speaker 3:

Okay.

Walter:

So I don't know what this week's title is. Um, what came to mind, and we will figure it out by the time we finish recording this episode. Um, this week's episode is an interesting one. Why is it interesting this week, babe?

Speaker 3:

This week. This episode is going to be about our we gotta talk louder.

Walter:

I guess, our testimony how we met. I guess I don't really know exactly. We're just like going off the dome. Today my wife got that God wanted us to finally share how we met, which is so weird to me because I am so private. I'm very private. I don't like for people to be in our business, and they've gotten in our business before and they've gotten it wrong, so but I do understand that. I guess it's an amazing testimony, it's a powerful testimony. It's an interesting story story.

Walter:

And so I believe it's a Genesis 2 story, a Matthew 19 story, right?

Speaker 3:

Mm-hmm. God-ordained.

Walter:

God-ordained marriage yeah.

Speaker 3:

I guess that could be something along the title God ordained marriage.

Walter:

I think we already have an episode, we will figure it out.

Speaker 3:

I don't know.

Walter:

Currently it is untitled. It is literally our story of how we met. So you want me to start or you start.

Shanea:

Mm-hmm.

Walter:

Because you had a prayer right.

Speaker 3:

I did I prayed and I have to go back and look at my journal and I shared it with you Was it like a couple weeks ago, when I found my journal. Yeah, maybe a month. Yeah, I had prayed about. I prayed to God and asked him to give me someone who he desired for me. And then I had a list of qualities, but they weren't like superficial, they were. They were like I wanted you to be accepting of me. That was like my prayer. So it was like of me. That was like my prayer.

Shanea:

So it was like allow him to be okay with me being goofy and screaming randomly when I want to she does that a lot.

Speaker 3:

And you won't be upset about it, or when I get get moody, you would be able to kind of mellow me out, or you would be understanding which you are, because I do be moody sometimes. And what else did I ask for? I asked that you would. And what else did I ask for? I asked that you would that you like stuff that I like, so like dorky stuff, I'm like, even though we don't watch that stuff that we used to watch before, um, so like same subjects, um, and then to be a family person, because you know, I was really family oriented, um, so I don't think there were any anything superficial. They were all things that I think a family or marriage should have, that you should be accepting of me and I I am accepting of you, and that there's nothing that I have to change about myself to in order to be loved by you or liked by you. And so that's what I wanted, but I, but the ultimate prayer was God, just give me whoever it is that you want, yeah, me to have.

Walter:

I don't think I had a particular prayer, because I have I had strayed away from the church, and so during that period of time, especially during the pandemic, I was just coming out of a really horrible relationship and a really horrible marriage and I was finding myself. So I was beginning to notice that there were similarities in the relationships and things like that. So I was trying to figure out what it was. Yet, interestingly, my mother was praying for me, she said. She consistently prayed for me and her prayer was always that God would lead me to whom he had called for me to be with in so many words. And so I had a dream a couple of months before meeting you, and in that dream it was me and it was this young lady petite, very long black hair, we all had white on, we had white, we were sitting or standing next to a white table, next to a white table.

Walter:

We were in a church, because I remember there being like a um, a stage that you have like in those churches. I don't know what you would call it, but you know like the pulpit pulpit? Yes, is that a pulpit? I thought the pulpit is what they stand behind. I don't know but yeah, it was like set up like a church and everything was just white, everybody had on white and I remember it were like it was. If I'm not mistaken it was three chairs. That was at the front of the church.

Walter:

It was someone in the middle of the chair, with someone on one side and someone on the other side, and I won't get into the details, but we had a conversation, the person in the dream. I had a conversation with this young lady and my entire life flashed before my eyes with her and I knew in a dream I could not do life without her. And I woke up and it was very.

Walter:

It stood out so much because I rarely dreamed before my conversion and I told two of my friends about it, and then I just put it on the side yeah and I believe that was a few months, if I'm not mistaken. If not, it's like April or possibly March that I had that dream, but it was right before we met. It was in the same year.

Walter:

We like it was in the same year so it was like a month before possibly, possibly, a month, two months most, because I remember talking to britney about the dream and she remembered the dream and, interestingly, fast forward when I was going through my conversion. God brought the dream back to me because I forgot about the dream and he also brought the conversation back to me that I had with britney about the dream so. So let's get started. Um, we met, I have I have purchased a pair of yeezys. We were in the same uh complex yeah and I got the.

Walter:

I was excited to get these easies. I was getting back on my shoe gang and um got the notification that they came. I was at work, working from home, working remotely, and I was gonna wait to go and get them until after I got off. Wasn't a big deal, but I just felt this urge to go and get them right then and there. So I went to the parcel locker to go and get them right there. And were you going in or coming out?

Speaker 3:

I was going in. I actually was on my way home from the gym and I had a package, but I was going to go get it later but I didn't. Something told me to just make a U-turn. So I just made a U-turn and I went to the parcel locker, because I don't usually even go that time of day, yeah.

Walter:

Yeah, and so we met each other. I saw you and I was like, okay, she's beautiful, and I was still. I still do photography, but I'm like I never shot anyone. I never did a photo shoot with anyone that had natural curly hair. I don't even know how I knew you had curly hair. Did you have your hair in curls, or did you have a ponytail that had curls in it, or something like that?

Speaker 3:

No, my hair was out Okay. Yeah, and.

Walter:

I was like this would be dope. You're a beautiful woman. I've never did a photo shoot with anyone with curly hair. I would love to do a photo shoot with you.

Speaker 3:

Now, mind you guys, he waited for me. I went into the parcel locker, had no idea he was there, and I come out and he was standing by his car like he was about to go get in his car, but you didn't.

Walter:

you saw me she's trying to say I was like like pressed okay I'm not saying you was pressed, I'm just saying that you noticed it wasn't, I didn't go to your car and go home. I noticed you, yes, but it wasn't from the perspective of like, oh, I gotta get with her. It was from the perspective of like, I would love to work with her oh, I think she's dope yes, and so she gave me her Instagram. Y'all, she gave me her Instagram.

Speaker 3:

I didn't give out my phone number so fast forward.

Walter:

We're getting in the car to go. She leaves. I'm leaving now. It's like we're going in the same direction and I'm like this girl is going to think I am stalking her and come to find out she lived a building over from me.

Speaker 3:

Yes.

Walter:

So she went into her building, I went into mine. Mind you, I had never seen her or her car, or either one of her cars at any, like I've never had noticed it before.

Speaker 3:

Yeah.

Walter:

I'd never seen her before, never seen her cars, which was so weird because it was right there where it was no reason that I would not have seen her or her vehicles because of how I parked and where I parked my car and I look back on some of the photos I took of my vehicle because I used to wash my car. I'm in the cars, blah, blah, blah, and I saw her car in the photos but I never noticed it before.

Speaker 3:

Yeah, I had been living there for like what, seven months, seven months there.

Walter:

At that time. Yeah, I thought she was there longer.

Speaker 3:

I was there in 20.

Walter:

Because you moved there in 21, right.

Speaker 3:

Yeah, 21.

Walter:

And this was in 22. Okay, so seven months Okay.

Speaker 3:

Yeah, we met in 22. Yeah, right.

Walter:

Yeah, yeah, had no clue.

Speaker 3:

Excuse me.

Walter:

Had no clue.

Speaker 3:

Had no clue. Never seen you, didn't know your car existed, nothing, yeah, and I used to walk and run in the neighborhood. Never saw you.

Walter:

So we do that. I go on her social media and this is so interesting. I did not agree with the stuff that she was posting and this will be, uh, uh, this, this would be a nugget for women. Um, be mindful of what you post on social media, because it it um, even with the type of women that I would do photography with, it was a certain look that I would go for, and so I'm like, if you didn't have that look, I didn't deal with you because I I liked it.

Walter:

The sophisticated looks the less is more, not the less is in like showing everything type situation and so I was like, okay, you know my homeboy, you know I sent him the gram and he was like, hook me up, hook me up. I'm like I got you, but I'm trying to do this photo shoot. So, calm down, I'm trying to do this photo shoot. What are you saying? It was always a case that she was beautiful, you know, but that's not what caught my attention. And then I think we was trying to set up a date. Did you stand me up for the first date? Because I know we shot after, or we did the photo shoot after, mother's Day.

Speaker 3:

No, you had wanted to do the photo shoot, maybe a different time, and I couldn't do it. And then we did the photo shoot.

Walter:

And when we did the photo shoot she showed up late.

Speaker 3:

I don't remember that.

Walter:

I remember it like it was the back of my hand, because she finally trusted me enough to get my phone number the day of and I gave her mine and text me and said that she was going to be running a little bit behind. An hour later she showed up there, music blasting windows down. This little I don't know if you would call it a scarf or something like that silk scarf around her hair like she was coming from Paris or something like that Just extra, extra, like, okay, extra. I'm like, okay, let's do this. So we did the photo shoot right, talking to her um, full disclosure, because I think that'll go into later. There was some stuff that was going on with you and I was trying to make you aware of, but you didn't believe, you didn't receive it. You want to speak on that?

Speaker 3:

Oh yeah, because I always had my boobs out, my breast was always showing, which I was used to, and so I'm a fairly heavy-chested woman and so, because of the previous relationship I was in, it was like that was like my best asset, and so I felt like I had to show it. And then I showed it so much that I didn't know how much was too much, because I was so used to them being out all the time.

Walter:

So I was telling her I'm like, hey, you know they're coming out. Oh, it's cool, I'm like all right, and it just added to like what I's cool, I'm like all right, and it just added to what I saw and I was like all right, whatever we do, the photo shoot, photo shoot was cool, but it was after the photo shoot we had a conversation.

Speaker 3:

It was during the photo shoot.

Walter:

It was during too, yeah.

Speaker 3:

Yeah.

Walter:

And after we ended up and it kind of carried on to after the photo shoot. And we ended up like chopping it up for like two hours, I feel. And it's like it was weird because, as we conversed, what you were saying didn't align with what you post and it really had me confused, and so it was just like, immediately, it was something within you that was drawing me to you yeah which was weird for me, because it was not like the outward appearance and it's not that you were unattractive, you, you're a beautiful woman and I know that it was just.

Walter:

It was something deeper and we didn't want to stop talking, but we had to go yeah so I went and told my friends about how I had this conversation with her and how like amazing of a conversation it was and how chill she was and all these things. And she went and told her friends the same thing this is true.

Speaker 3:

We both didn't have like a natural attraction to each other like I thought he was handsome, but I wasn't like extremely attracted to him, like in a way where I was like, oh, like I gotta make him my boyfriend or anything like that. But it was just like when we started talking I was like, oh, I like the way he thinks, I like we could, we, we vibed, we vibed on the photo shoot, even though he said he just wanted to do a photo shoot.

Walter:

We gonna keep it what it is, but I think was it that day or was it the next day or some other time. At some point I reached out to you to try to set up a date.

Shanea:

Mm-hmm.

Walter:

And we had our first date at the coffee shop Mm-hmm, which was also a breakfast spot. Yes, because I was like I was talking to my homeboy. He's like, make sure you don't spend a lot of money. You know, you take her somewhere. There's like a chill spot that you ain't spending a lot of money. You get to know her. And that's what I did and we talked more and we vibed out. But she had gotten her feelings because I was having a conversation with this guy about, uh, volkswagen gtis?

Speaker 3:

yes, because he's into cars and so I don't even know how you guys got onto this but you saw my car oh yeah, that's right. Your car wasn't parked in front of the yeah yeah, the coffee shop and you guys talked for like 45 minutes we did, and his, his girlfriend or wife was there too, and she understood it I had.

Speaker 3:

No, I've never experienced anything like that before ever. I'm like, okay, like it was intriguing, because it was like, okay, I'm glad he has like hobbies, like he has something that he he's really passionate about, and I'm like that's cool, that's different. But I was like, okay, I'm just sitting here because I don't know anything about cars I have no idea what they're talking about.

Walter:

It was like foreign language to me she was in her feelings I wasn't in my feelings but, I thought it was a little rude, rude, yes and it was just me being me because it's like when I started getting the talking about. Even to this day, she knows this yeah, now it doesn't bother me because but even to this day, if someone stops and we would start talking cars, especially if it's a Volkswagen GTI, if it's an Audi or something of that nature or a BMW.

Speaker 3:

We can pull up next to a car and he'll roll the window down. Hey dude, that's nice. I like that.

Walter:

Yeah.

Speaker 3:

That's the car community and they'll sit and talk and I'm just like yeah, and she just be trying to get out of the way.

Walter:

I like cars. I don't love, because a lot of people say love, I don't worship them, but I admire different type of vehicles. But we did that. I thought it was cool. I didn't want the date to end, definitely wanted to get to know her more. No more. I was reaching out to her, I was texting her, calling her. I would call her and she would literally wait two days to respond. I would text her and she would text me the next day and I didn't understand it because I'm like I'm thinking that we vibing, we good, we chilling, and it just was not happening. It took me so much to get another date out of you. You started, you kept postponing the date and I think the second date we went to the aquarium, which I thought was like super dope. I was trying to think of something that everybody take, everybody out to eat. I'm like aquarium would be cool, it's fun, it it's chill. Took her out, paid for a parking, all that stuff. She was playing hard to get y'all.

Speaker 3:

I was.

Walter:

She was playing hard to get.

Speaker 3:

I was.

Walter:

And so we went through. I think something happened. We had a conversation before I went to the Netherlands.

Shanea:

Mm-hmm.

Speaker 3:

And we stopped did we stop talking?

Walter:

yeah, because you, uh, we listen, my wife was in a different space at the time, and so she she had the audacity to tell me that I was at the bottom of a list.

Speaker 3:

Did I tell you that before you went to the Netherlands?

Walter:

Yeah.

Shanea:

Oh.

Walter:

She had a whole roster is what she told me. And I'm like I bet I don't want to be on the roster then Because I ain't have no roster. It was just her I was talking to Because, granted, like prior to her, I wasn't really chopping it up with anyone. I had gotten out of a really crazy relationship and so I was just cool being by myself. You know, I was at the house playing the game. I would take myself out to dinner.

Walter:

This is something, men, you know, you gotta get, you gotta be comfortable, just kind of being in your own skin and and and not being so hard-pressed. But um, she told me that it really hurt me. I ain't gonna lie, I was, I was broken. I was talking to my friends like why she do me like this and I don't get it, I ain't wanna be out here anyway. I don't even understand it, but it was just like something that was just tugging at me to where I could not let this situation go. So I think we went a few weeks without talking, right maybe so and I saw you, did you text me?

Speaker 3:

I think we went a few weeks without talking right, maybe.

Walter:

So I saw you, did you text me? I think you text me.

Speaker 3:

I think I text you.

Walter:

Yeah, then we started kind of talking, but not really. I went to the Netherlands. I talked to you a little bit before I went to the Netherlands, bought you a cake for your birthday Nothing but cake. Yeah, you, you did which was really nice and and we was just kind of off and on talking but really not dating, and I came back and we hit it off I think in september I don't know what took place and we went for a strong two months, possibly three, right.

Shanea:

When.

Walter:

From like September to like November.

Speaker 3:

Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, we was pretty pretty strong.

Walter:

And she was just how was you baby?

Speaker 3:

Excuse me, I wasn't even talking to anybody. I wasn't even talking to anybody. I did say that he was on my roster just because I had just come out of a relationship, a divorce, and I was not trying to play myself. I was not trying to play myself. I was not trying to play myself. I also we both didn't want to be in a relationship and I think you were more open to the idea, but I just was not.

Walter:

Because she was like oh, you just really like me a lot, because I never understood, I did not want to be with anyone and I did not want to be with anyone and I did not. It was weird because I was not attracted to her. It was something inside her and I would always tell her you're beautiful, but that's not what catches my attention. And it weirded me out.

Speaker 3:

And it didn't really make sense to me either.

Walter:

Yeah, but it was like it was something within her that I was attracted to or that caught my attention, like I wasn't trying to have you know, this is grown people channel. I wasn't trying to have sex with her or anything like that I just enjoyed her company and I really genuinely just wanted to get to know her more and gain a greater understanding of who she was. Um, and I didn't understand it because, like, I was just always used to just going after physical and just that being it, and so it was different with her. I remember having conversations with friends and them being like oh you know, you just really you love her, and I'm like that ain't it?

Speaker 3:

that ain't it that was it, but no, it was cool because, um, like when we would get together. When I came over to your house, I had never acted like that before with anybody.

Walter:

Yo, the first time Shania came to my house. It was like what did you do?

Speaker 3:

with my sofa. It was like.

Walter:

She jumped on my sofa like she was five years old. I was like what's wrong with this girl, what's wrong with her? We was playing Mortal Kombat, right, we was playing Mortal Kombat and she was jumping all over me like she was a kid cause she was losing.

Speaker 3:

I wasn't losing, I hadn't played in a long time but you were losing.

Walter:

She was getting her behind, whipped in one time.

Speaker 3:

No, no, no, no no.

Walter:

She was getting destroyed.

Speaker 3:

But like I could, like I came, I went over there, not expecting anything, obviously, but I was like we literally lived in the same apartment complex. So I'm like I just walked over, Walked over to his apartment and I. So I'm like I just walked over, walked over to his apartment and I wasn't expecting anything. We was just going to play the game and I was just being myself. I wasn't trying to be anyone different, I wasn't trying to make myself look a certain type of way or make you think of me any certain type of way. I was literally just like myself.

Walter:

She was. She was very comfortable, I was extremely comfortable for some odd reason Very comfortable Jumping on the sofa, laughing as she's jumping on the sofa.

Speaker 3:

I had never been to his house before.

Walter:

Like first time, Never First time. I don't even jump on my sofa and she was jumping on it. I'm like yo, what is going on here? And then I'm like going and getting groceries for her and running errands and all that stuff and I felt so weirded out. I'm like why am I doing this for this girl? This don't make sense, I don't want to do this. Why am I doing this? What's?

Speaker 3:

wrong with me? I didn't even ask, I didn't ask you to get me groceries or anything like that, but you offered and I would be like no, no, no, you would just insist and I'm like all right, cool.

Walter:

Cooked for her. She said my food didn't have no seasoning. Y'all Hurt my little feelings, Did you not say that?

Speaker 3:

No, I didn't. No, you had seasoning, were talking about our other recipes and I asked you what you put in your food and you didn't give me enough seasoning and I asked you, I asked you who gave you that recipe and I knew it was your co-workers from work and it wasn't black listen, listen to my white sisters and brothers out there.

Walter:

We love y'all too. Okay, but you're going to leave my food alone.

Speaker 3:

He didn't have no Cajun seasoning. I did put Cajun seasoning. I put Cajun seasoning in everything.

Walter:

I didn't know Tony's. But I would use Cajun, I would use garlic, I would use paprika, I would use all that stuff. Sea salt, paprika, I would use all that stuff.

Speaker 3:

Sea salt and pepper Right.

Walter:

It was some other stuff I would use.

Shanea:

No, it's not, but we getting off subject.

Speaker 3:

So we went through some stuff. Yeah, I don't know, you kind of not going into a lot of detail.

Walter:

I mean, what do you mean? I'm not going into details, how much details you want me to go into.

Speaker 3:

No, I don't even know where to go. To be honest with you.

Walter:

We had some conversations with my wife. Just let me have it a few times.

Speaker 3:

Honestly, you guys, I had came out of this relationship, out of this marriage that I was in. I got a divorce and I had dated and it felt like after I got out of that divorce, I dated someone I thought I was kind of going to be in a relationship with and that didn't work out. And then I dated some more people and I didn't want to be in a relationship anymore and I just didn't want to be put in a box. I felt like he was trying to put me in a box and I felt like I didn't have control and I think, coming out of that relationship that I was in, where I was controlled and abused, that now that I was out of it, I felt like I had to be the one to take control over my life, and so I didn't want that same thing. I didn't want to feel like I didn't have control over what was going to happen to me.

Walter:

Which is why this is why it's important Both us as men and women we have to be mindful that we are healed whole, like completely We've done episodes on that because if you don't, what happens is you start viewing everybody through that lens and you, and especially like if you're walking in unforgiveness the Bible touches on this you will literally start. That's why the Bible tells us to forgive.

Speaker 3:

It's not for the other person, it's for you, because what we notice in life is that you become the very thing that you hate so much yeah you become the very person that you hate so much yeah, and I couldn't really receive anything that he was given to me, even though they were everything that I wanted or thought I wanted. But, as you, you would buy me things, you would talk to me nicely which I loved, and I always told you that but like just the things you would do. I couldn't really accept it because it wasn't something that was done for me before and I was doing everything for myself and so I don't know it was. I couldn't even like receive it.

Walter:

So we went through a series of conversations that was really challenging, and then, on my end of course, and it is not scriptural, you know, it's not first Corinthians 13, but on my end I was doing things for her, but I was also expecting things in return, and so that's also not of God, because the Bible and what God dealt with me on as I went through my conversion, is loving in spite of, and that was a challenge, because the world would teach you that as I love, you should reciprocate that love.

Shanea:

You should give me what I'm giving to you and I should give you what I'm giving.

Walter:

From a godly perspective. You should, but that shouldn't be the reason that you're doing it right and that to get something back exactly, yeah, and that did uh delves into, like first corinthians 13 um everyone read uh it's great to have an understanding of what love is. But we had a series of conversations, um, that was really like a turning point in our situation, because you never wanted to admit that we was in a relationship.

Shanea:

No.

Walter:

Even though when I was like, okay, we don't have to call this quits, because my wife kept trying to make it appear as if she was entertaining other people when she wasn't. Even though one time you did what?

Shanea:

do you mean?

Walter:

When you went out the day before we went to the aquarium it was just one date still, I was like bro if I never talked to him before after that I felt some type of way, y'all, I was like, bro, I'm spending my hard-earned money out here in these streets, men know and, and that's what we doing. But she had created this based on conversations she had with her friends. She created this um thing where it was like she had me thinking that she was entertaining other people. So it created an insecurity in me, a heavy insecurity, so I was always wondering what she's doing, who she's doing it with. Am I the only one that she's talking to? And I never dealt with that before. And, um, it also dealt with just some things that was unresolved as well because of rejection and all of that stuff.

Speaker 3:

Just things that I dealt with as a kid yeah, which is crazy because, like he was like I can't do this, like you talking to multiple people, and I just, I, just I can't talk to you no more. And I just started crying.

Walter:

She was crying uncontrollably.

Speaker 3:

I was crying. I didn't even understand why I was crying and I'm like why are you crying?

Walter:

You telling me you're talking to other people and you want to change.

Speaker 3:

Because I really wasn't and I was like, oh my gosh, he thinks that I'm like out here in these streets.

Walter:

I did think she was out there in these streets.

Speaker 3:

But I'm like out here in these streets. I did think she was out there in the streets. But I'm like, but I wasn't and I don't know. It was just I didn't have very good advice. I don't know I hadn't dated in.

Shanea:

The people she was taking advice from was apparently 14, 15 years.

Walter:

Them boys was apparently for the streets Prior to 2020.

Walter:

But my friends at the time was telling me that it sounded like because she kept telling me she didn't want to be boxed in. And I had decent friends, I had some good friends. Some of them was ugh, but one of the things that the theme was she had came out of a controlling relationship is what it sounded like. My female friends would tell me that that she dealt with someone that was very controlling and that she needed to be healed. She needed to be healed, but we had a series of conversations that the people don't even know about and it was really taxing on your boy.

Walter:

Some stuff that was said.

Speaker 3:

And you decided you didn't want to be with me. No more Mm-hmm, because I didn't want to be in a relationship.

Walter:

What you told me, you said to me, and I think it's important because it sets the stage of where we were when things ended you told me that you would never marry me. Mm-hmm, you told me you would never marry me. I did say that, and so I was being mean though oh, she was being, I was being mean, because, like I didn't.

Speaker 3:

Like I wanted to be friends and he didn't want to be friends and I didn't want to be in a relationship, and so there was this we was butting heads we was buttoned heads because I'm like I don't need no more.

Walter:

I told you, I don't need no more female friends.

Speaker 3:

I got female friends we were buttoned heads consistently and like then I would be like no, I don't want to, you know, I don't want to do this anymore, I just want to be friends. And then he would like, okay, well, we could be friends. And then we wouldn't be friends because he would want to be my boyfriend and I'm like, no, I don't want to be.

Walter:

She wanted the benefits of me being anything. No, no, no no, Because you enjoyed the stuff that took place. That was more than friends. Don't even pretend she enjoyed all the benefits of having a boyfriend without having the title. She wanted to put your boy in a situation and I'm like I don't get down like that.

Shanea:

It's too expensive in these streets to be doing situations.

Walter:

Let's call it what it is, but it was, I think, to set the stage. We were in a space where there was no coming back. There was no. She did everything except block me.

Speaker 3:

I could not block this man for the life of me. And I remember us having a conversation I couldn't block him for nothing, and that's why it was like I would say things that would be really mean so that he would leave me alone, but then he wouldn't, and so I would say even more mean things so he would leave me alone, but honestly, I would have just blocked him, but I could not.

Walter:

And we had a conversation in the car and she was like I don't understand, I can't let you go. And I'm like I don't understand, I can't let you go either, and I don't want to do this because you are saying stuff to me that's very mean. I don't like how you treat me, I don't like what's going on. And, granted, it's because of what she had came from and what she had dealt with. I didn't understand it at the time, but that's what it was, and so we was just at this odds when we came to an end in November, and I remember having conversations with my friends like I don't know how to get past this. I'm struggling. They're like why I'm like I don't know. It's just I feel like I'm still attached to her and I don't get it. I don't get it. I was talking to everybody about it.

Speaker 3:

It was weird, there was no reason why we should have felt the way we felt about each other. Nah, because we hadn't known each other that long. Yeah, we hadn't known each other that long.

Walter:

But it was. It was like, it was like a part of me.

Speaker 3:

It should have been easier for me to just block you and like just X you out.

Walter:

And it should have been easier for me to just go out in the streets and just run wild. I couldn't. Boys was trying to get me out. My homegirl was trying to get me out, all this stuff like.

Walter:

And I and on November 26, november 26, I believe it was November 26, 2022, is when I was laying in my bed in that apartment and it was like nine o'clock at night and I heard the voice of God audibly and I had just got off the phone with my friends and everything and he said you asked everybody about what their thoughts was with your relationship. When are you going to ask me? And I knew it was God and I asked him what are your thoughts? And he was like you were loving her the way. You were loving her because I called you to love her that way. Your problem was you were supposed to love her through me. I'm like what? That don't make sense. What do you mean? I was supposed to love her through you. What do you mean? I'm supposed to love her that way? You see how she treated me. Like what are you talking about? You were supposed to love her through me. I called you to love her that way.

Walter:

And he started like I started having these series of encounters with god and it was crazy because I think I talked to you about the fact that I was not getting any sleep the last time, the last time we spoke before it just kind of went left and I told you I was not getting any sleep and I wasn't. I was being like I could not rest. Like I could not rest and it's because my sister, uh, she was praying for me, my sister, in the face, she was praying for me. She told me later on she was praying that god would remove my sleep because god had her praying for me. Um, because I contemplated, um, trying to rekindle things with my ex because I miss my child, and God was telling her pray because that was the enemy trying to get me back into something and get me caught up, and so it was just.

Walter:

God took me through that journey from there and I began to have dreams. He reminded me of the dream I had in earlier in the year. He reminded me of the dream I had in um, earlier in the year. He reminded me of the conversation I had. He reminded me of dreams I had years prior to even meeting you, and told me that those dreams were dreams I was given to you, about her. Those dreams was about her. I didn't even remember the dreams I had. Uh, I knew, like even in the previous relationship I was in, I was not supposed to be there and God just began to talk to me and he didn't immediately tell me you were my wife.

Walter:

He just kind of made he would talk about you're supposed to love her this way. This is how you're supposed to do this. You're supposed to pour into her. You were doing those things, but you was not loving her unconditionally. You was loving her conditionally.

Walter:

You're supposed to love her through me, consistently saying all this stuff and my home girl sent me a bishop td jake sermon and I listened to the sermon and that's when he finally told me that you were my wife and I was like no she's not, I don't want her to be my wife. She treated me like trash with nothing to do with this woman, and he took me through it.

Speaker 3:

He kept moving your head down His mom, because I'm hot, you hot.

Walter:

And so God took me through the process yo and it's like I'm paraphrasing because we're looking at time but I started travailing. I didn't even know what travailing was. Never did it a day in my life. It exists everyone. The Father had me travailing for my wife. He had me travailing for me. He had me travailing for your salvation, and it was like when you travail, you're birthing something forth. So it's like birthing pains. So it's like what women go through when they have childbirth but it's a spiritual perspective and he had me praying day in, day out.

Walter:

I was battling. I would be having to go into the car and pray. I didn't understand it. He would tell me pray for you, know, pray for you. Walk into the car, pray for you. Coming back from the car, I would have dreams about the stuff that you were doing. I would have dreams about why you were dealing with the stuff that you was dealing with. There was nothing my wife was doing that I didn't already know about. Then he started having me pray for you, pray for you, and I think, um, the travailing ended.

Walter:

It started in december, the beginning of december, and I believe it ended in like january the beginning of january, but I tried to uh reach out to you yeah and I, I left a christmas present for you.

Speaker 3:

Uh, after christmas, and I was doing, when I left the Christmas present for you, I did that out of my own, yeah, you asked me if you can get me a present and I told you no and I'm like I don't want nothing to do with him, no more. Because if I talk to him and he's going to think that I want to be with him, and then we're going to start talking, and I don't want that to happen. I just don't want no contact. So I want no be with him and then we're going to start talking. I don't want that to happen, I just don't want no contact. So I want no contact. He would text me, he would call me, he would ignore me. I would ignore him.

Walter:

Then God would have me do random things like send her money, do this, do that, and I would feel like a fool telling me to say certain things to her. I would feel crazy and I would be battling with the father. I don't want to do this. No, she's going to look at me like I'm crazy. She don't like me, she don't appreciate me. I'm not doing it.

Walter:

He even had me apologize to her, which it was hard to do. I did not want to apologize because I feel like she wronged me. Why I'm apologizing to her? She need to apologize to me took me through the process, so we went through it. We were going back and forth. She would get mad because God would tell me to say something to her. I would say it to her. She wouldn't want to hear it and he kept reminding me that my ministry started with you and there were instances where I, you know, struggled with possibly just letting it go and being with someone else or not being with anyone at all, and he would give me dreams just kind of showcasing that if you do this, what I would take you through is not going to be good.

Walter:

So we went through that for some months of me praying for you, praying for you, praying for you, and God saying that you were my wife and he always referred to you as my wife. He never referred to you as just Shanae or whatever. Your wife, your wife, If I did something wrong. Your wife, your wife, your wife, your wife. Because we know when God sees us, he sees us incomplete.

Walter:

He sees us in a complete state. And this is everyone where a lot of the revelations that we speak on now came from. It was during that period, because god? Um took me through a period of like a consecration, without me even realizing it. He removed my desire to have sex because me and my wife was sexually active prior. Uh, he removed. I had exes reaching. I had an ex or exes reaching out to me, um trying to link up. God would tell me before it would happen. He would show me what their heart desire was. Even with friends, he would show me what their heart desire was, and so I had no desire for sex. The music I was listening to, he removed that. The shows and TV I was watching, he shifted that everything and just was taking me through the process.

Shanea:

What was going?

Speaker 3:

on with you as I was going through the process. Babe, I don't really remember what was going on with me. I mean, I had started to. You know, I was into I would have considered myself a spiritualist and so, like doing yoga, I was in ancestral worship. I had just kind of stopped doing those things. I didn't really know why, I just kind of just stopped doing it, and obviously it was because my husband was praying for me, I didn't know. And so life kind of like mellowed out a little bit, but I was really just focused on work. I was working and then I would get these text messages from you talking about how you gave your life to Christ and God is speaking to you, and he would send me these long messages about what God has been saying to him about me and that he is my husband. And I was like no, you're not. You're not my husband. You're never going to be my husband. You're not going to be my husband. I don't want you to be my husband.

Walter:

And I would feel so stupid everyone because I would sit on these things and I would have God continually coming at me until I would send the message to her. I did not want to send the messages to her, I didn't. I'm like God. Can you have someone else tell her, can you have someone else do this? And he reminded me that my ministry started with her and so I had to be obedient. If I wasn't obedient, he would not let me rest.

Speaker 3:

And I could not block him. I still couldn't block him. I still couldn't block you after you telling me that I thought this man was crazy. I thought he was a plum fool. I thought you were crazy. I thought you was a stalker. I thought you was.

Walter:

She was telling people I was stalking her and everything y'all.

Speaker 3:

He would text me because I just didn't understand why you couldn't leave me alone.

Walter:

I wanted to. I didn't understand it either, because I would literally have dreams and it would literally be. She could not do anything without God already showing me what she was doing. There was nothing that she was doing, that I did not know Nothing, because I told you about how I wasn't dreaming before, but after my encounter with God, I was having seven to eight dreams or so per night, and I remember every single one of them because God will wake me up after every dream. I was being awakened every hour and hour, and so it was really intense. I would have visions, I would have encounters and all of those different things.

Speaker 3:

Right. So encounters like you would see me and then in a vision, and then it would happen in real life, Like I would be leaving my car or going somewhere, the exact same way that God showed it to you, and at that time, like I said, I was just working, I would go to my spa, I would do the things that I normally do. I would go to my spa, I would do the things that I normally do. I occasionally, I think I had like there was like three instances where I parked my car and I was going to go to your house and I'm like no, I'm not going to go. And there was moments when I was going to call you and I'm like no, I'm not going to call them and God would be telling me that she's going to reach out.

Walter:

and it was those instances that she did not. I was like, I'm like no, I'm not going to call him, and God would be telling me that she's going to reach out, and it was those instances that she did not.

Speaker 3:

I was like, I felt like I wanted to go to your house and I'm like, nope, I'm not going to go. I'm going to give him back all his stuff because I had borrowed some things.

Walter:

She still wear my clothes.

Speaker 3:

I borrowed some clothes, some hoodies. You know, girls, I borrow a hoodie and a coat and a jacket To the married couples out here.

Walter:

do y'all struggle with the fact that, to the men, to my fellas, tell me, do you struggle with the fact that you no longer have anything? My wife will wear all my stuff. She wear my socks, she wear my shirt.

Shanea:

She wear my sweaters.

Walter:

She wear my hats, I will go out and I don't even realize she has it on until we are at church or something we're out to dinner and I'm like that's not it bitch. You ain't got no hat you got on my hat.

Speaker 3:

Anyway. So I put all his stuff in a bag and I left it at his front door. I don't even think I rang the doorbell or nothing.

Shanea:

I wasn't there.

Speaker 3:

I just sat it in front of your door hoping that nobody stole it.

Walter:

You telling me it wasn't you, but I saw you, it was not me. I saw you, I seencha.

Speaker 3:

It wasn't me. You didn't see me.

Walter:

I seencha.

Speaker 3:

You didn't.

Walter:

But we agree to disagree. So it was somebody else in the complex that looked like we went, but there was no reason for her to be up there. We went through all of this stuff and, um, it came. I had a dream, right well, I don't know what happened. I came, um, something took place when I saw you, because I was trying to you know, I would be told to reach out to you know, take her out.

Speaker 3:

You guys, I would leave my, I would look, I would look outside the window, outside the blinds to make sure that you wasn't outside so that I could go get in my car so that you wouldn't see me.

Speaker 3:

And there were plenty of times where I've seen you going to your car and coming from your car and I'm about to leave my house and I would just sit there Like I had my cousin and the baby's in the car and I didn't come outside. My cousin's like what's going on? I'm like I can't go outside Because I was waiting for you to leave and I was not checking for this woman at all.

Walter:

I wanted nothing to do with her. I didn't want to deal with it.

Speaker 3:

I didn't even want you to see me.

Walter:

I didn't want to deal with it. I'm fighting with God over this. I'm battling. I don't want to deal with this. I feel like a fool. I feel like an idiot. This don't make sense. Why can't I be with someone else? Why can't I do this with someone else? Why can't I just have you and me? I could just be me and you.

Walter:

God, I'm Gucci with that, all this stuff, I mean it was crazy and the enemy was fighting because I had, like people trying to come at me. God would tell me people was going to try to approach and they would approach you the exact way, look, in the exact same way that they looked in a dream. I'm telling you it was crazy, but it was something that she needed from me and it was something I needed from her. Going through this, this, this, this thing because we're pressed for time and we'll probably finish out next week but going through this thing really, um put me into a situation of realizing that me being connected to her unlocked a lot of stuff, because in my marriage that I was in before, I never dreamed, I never had visions, I never encountered God. I went to church, yet I did not know God.

Shanea:

Yeah.

Walter:

It wasn't until me and her came together that things shifted.

Shanea:

Yeah.

Walter:

I actually heard the audible voice of god and I and it had been a wow, since I heard the audible voice of god yeah, I was in. It had been a while since I literally heard god speak to me.

Walter:

I'm talking like years, like when I was probably in my early 20s yeah and just kind of maybe even night, like when I heard god speaking, I encountered like the supernatural god. So that was something that was interesting to me and there were a, a slew of revelations that god provided with regards to marriages and relationships and just really showcasing that I did things wrong. But interestingly, interestingly, what was so unique with us? We finally met. I don't know why she decided to start back talking to me, but she did, and I believe God was dealing with her too, because he told me he was Well, that's because I was talking to two people and they were like, well, maybe he is Shania, maybe he is your husband, maybe you should talk to him.

Speaker 3:

Maybe, maybe he is Shania, maybe he is your husband, maybe you should, like you know, talk to him. Maybe he really is a prophet, maybe he really is a man of God. Because of what he's saying, people, please don't be reaching out to the emails or anything.

Walter:

I'm just Walter, but go ahead.

Speaker 3:

Sorry, I'm sorry, babe, I'll put you out there like that, it's fine.

Speaker 3:

Don't put you out there like that, it's fine, don't put me out there. Okay, man, I'm God, thank you. They were like yeah, well, maybe he really is, like, maybe he's really genuine, maybe everything that he's saying is true and I'm like okay, well, maybe so, maybe so. But the reason why I could not block you, I just could not not talk to you, there was just like there was like a sweet spot in me for you that I could not not X you out completely.

Walter:

And I think we went on a date and the date went horrible. The date was horrible.

Speaker 3:

Oh, you had asked me to go on a date with you.

Walter:

Yes.

Speaker 3:

And I finally agreed because I said no multiple times and I was like, all right, maybe he did change, I don't know, We'll see, and oh yeah, and just you know it was crazy all right.

Walter:

Maybe he did change, I don't know, we'll see. And oh yeah, and just you know it was crazy y'all Like God had me sending her flowers. He would have me so into her life money and I would hate it. I'm like this don't make sense and he would consistently tell me that she's good ground. She's good ground to sow into.

Speaker 3:

Isn't that crazy? Because I would just get these cash out just randomly from him and they'd be significant amounts of money and I would.

Walter:

I did not want to do. Oh my God, I could buy me some shoes.

Speaker 3:

I could do this for myself. Why is he sending this to me? I'm not even talking to him. I really thought he was crazy. I was like I don't even want to talk to him, I don't want him to know that I even received it anything, or I don't want him to know nothing because I think he's nuts.

Walter:

Listen.

Speaker 3:

Because anybody who does not respond to you you should not be trying to pursue and I just could not, for the life of me, understand why he was trying to pursue me. But I also still didn't understand because I wasn't. I wasn't able to receive at all um, and so it was weird to me. So, like him wanting to talk to me all the time, it was just like not normal for me and I just could not. I just couldn't get down with the get down.

Walter:

And the thing is that, while there was two things that was taking place, it was very uncomfortable for me, but it was. God was breaking me. He was breaking something inside me.

Walter:

Because there was a pride inside me, and so he was breaking something inside me because there was a pride inside me, and so he was breaking something inside me that he was also using me, and this is what he explained to me.

Walter:

He was using me to show shania how much he loved her. So he would have me text her certain things that came from him and say tell her that I said this about her because she couldn't hear God. So he was like tell her, I said this about her, tell her I said that, tell her I said this, or say this to her, or say that to her, or say this, or tell her about this, or tell her this is what I've called her to Stuff that I did not need. There's no way I could have known. There was things that was already in her that she knew, that I knew nothing about, that God had revealed to me about her, and so it was just like that's what was going on and it was crazy. She never at the time admitted that those things were true, but then she finally admitted afterwards when we came back together yeah, but I kind of I didn't really read the text messages.

Speaker 3:

I read them but I was just so, uh, I don't know, I just off-putting. I was very off-putting and I I didn't want to accept any of the text messages and I I was like, whatever God you serve, I don't, even, I don't, I don't. It's not the same God I'm serving.

Walter:

And it was not.

Speaker 3:

So I said whatever God is telling you that we are supposed to be together, you need to stop listening to him, because I'm not getting the same thing you're getting.

Walter:

And let me explain something to you all. My wife don't know. There was a couple of times she almost got caught up. There was a couple of times she almost got caught up and I remember because I felt the anger of God and I had to pray for her. You remember when you was reading the book where um it talked about I think rebecca is her name how she was praying for the young lady because she was being very disrespectful to god oh, yes, yes, yes, yes, yeah.

Speaker 3:

And the angel of the lord came to uh, take her life.

Walter:

My wife don't understand that there was a couple of times that I had to literally lie before, like I had to humble myself and pray for her because god was like you, not like because he got on me one time but and I'm telling you and people like this is going to mess with people religion but it was one time because god had me working through some hurt for her. He would have me access hurt of hers within the spirit realm and I got tired of doing it and I didn't want to do it.

Speaker 3:

Yeah, what's that scripture? Because I read it in a book.

Walter:

You talking about sharing your burdens, or whatever?

Speaker 3:

Yeah, yeah, we're supposed to share each other's burden.

Walter:

You can find it.

Speaker 3:

Laying down our lives for one another.

Walter:

I was complaining and God had me carry your hurt and it was just like a like it was a weight on my chest that was crushing my chest and he had me drive someplace and he told me you was going to carry this until you get home. And when you get home, from where I told you to drive, you can ask me to lift the burden and I'll lift it. And I was like God, I don't know if I can do this. I felt like my chest was going to cave in and he was like you were complaining about me having you do this for her, when she's been carrying this around her whole life. And I got home and I asked God to lift it and I asked God to forgive me and he finally lifted the burden and when I tell you everyone, it shifted my view and things, because it was so excruciatingly painful to where I thought I was going to die. And he was like you're complaining about the stuff I have you doing for her and this is what she's carrying. She's been carrying this in her entire life and so I didn't understand the weight of it until we got back together and I started, because it's different when you hear God saying she's been through this and I won't speak details because that's for you to speak, but she's been through this and this has happened and that's happened, and this happened and that happened as I'm praying for her, and he would tell me now I have you praying for this, I have you accessing this memory, I have you accessing that memory, I have you accessing this. But what took place to her when she was five years old or that, and all of these different things, and so it was a, it was a, it was, it was a like.

Walter:

It shifted my view and it broke me, and so, no matter what my wife would say to me, there was a resolve in me that I would, no matter how long it took, I would love her in spite of, so she could do whatever she wanted to do. She could treat me however she wanted to treat me. I would love her in spite of, so she could do whatever she wanted to do. She could treat me however she wanted to treat me. I would love her in spite of and I think we should share it there was an incident. My wife was with someone else. I had a dream about it. I did not want to see it. I pulled myself out of the dream. I had the dream about it in did not want to see it.

Walter:

I pulled myself out of the dream. I had to dream about it in december actually, and I'm like no, god showed it to me and, um, it was hard because you know, he took me, was it josea? I think he took me to j, not calling you a prostitute, but just saying that I've still called you to love her, no matter what. And it broke me because I was pissed, because I'm like you won't let me do nothing. I can't be with nobody. I can't do nothing with nobody If I do anything you take me through the ringer.

Walter:

Why can she do what she want to do when I can't? And God first of all. One of the things he told me is to whom much is given, so much more is required. And he also told me that you are held accountable for what you know just as much as she is held accountable for what she knows. But it starts with you, because I've called you to love her as what Christ loves the church. So it was a real Like we weren't together, though. No, we weren't together, real like we weren't together, though.

Speaker 3:

no, we weren't together but in god's eyes we were spiritually.

Walter:

Spiritually we were, we were together, together we were, and so it was challenging the stuff that we went through, but it came to an end because you had a situation going on at your house.

Walter:

I had a dream and in the dream she was having a conversation with her aunt and she was talking about how her daughter at the time now our child that we share was bit by a snake at my house. And I was having this dream and I'm like I don't got no snake at my house, she ain't even at my house. It was like a snake bit her at his house. I don't know what he got going on or what's taking place, but the snake bit her, bit her at his house and I woke up. And when I woke up, I had something like a demon that was hovering over my neck and I immediately began to pray. The interesting thing is that at this time that this was happening happening, it was the same time when she was going through the situation that she was going through at her house where, uh, our youngest was being attacked by a snake.

Speaker 3:

In the spirit realm, so, as it was happening in the physical at my house, you were seeing it at your house.

Walter:

And I was actually also under attack at my house and I was praying and I'm like I don't know what this woman is in and fast forward. You had this stuff going on. You called me over to pray and she's like, oh, oh, he came over to pray. I prayed first because my sister and brother was like you ain't but they don't know.

Speaker 3:

But they don't know because I haven't told them anything yet. Okay, so on on the other, on on, I'm starting a channel and then I will let them know.

Walter:

So you don't want me to talk about that.

Speaker 3:

No, you could talk about it, but what I'm saying is they don't know because I haven't told them anything yet. Okay. Because I haven't put the video out.

Walter:

We'll go into part two next week.

Shanea:

Yeah.

Walter:

I think we got.

Speaker 3:

About how, when we got back together, what that looked like, yeah, or what initiated me to finally accept you.

Walter:

And spoiler alert everyone. One of the things that God told me I had to do was fall back and let him deal with her to show her that I, I was who she called me, or who he called me to be. I was who she he called her to be with. Um, that's one of the things that he dealt with me on and he, I had to do that and he did. He told her I didn't even know. He told her. She didn't even tell me anything. He just randomly like oh okay what do you mean?

Walter:

you just, he just told you. You ain't told me nothing. What do you mean when he told you, when he revealed to you that I was your husband?

Speaker 3:

no, I knew you was my husband, like before. You even told me that I was your wife, but I didn't want to accept it, just like you didn't want to accept that you love me.

Walter:

We ain't even going to get on that Cause. You were like you love me. Though Just say it Just. I ain't saying nothing. I ain't saying nothing, Not saying that, Not saying I love you.

Shanea:

No.

Walter:

Cause it become real, then no.

Speaker 3:

Right no.

Walter:

So, listen, we will continue this next week. Hopefully, this has been a blessing. I think one of the things I would say is and I'll end it here and I'll let my wife say whatever she wants to say One of the things I learned within our situation is it's so important that you just kind of do what God calls you to do. It's so important that you just kind of do what God calls you to do, Because we went through so much stuff Even when we came together initially. We went through so much hell because neither one of us was where God called us to be Yet even in the midst of that, god did bring us together, to each other.

Walter:

He allowed us to come together to each other, but we messed it up and he had to separate us and fix the things that we screwed up. However, ladies, he started with me first.

Speaker 3:

Mm-hmm. So the reason why we broke up, it was because he needed to be in a place where he could minister.

Shanea:

Yeah.

Speaker 3:

Start his ministry. God called him to ministry and his ministry starts with your ministry starts at home. Men's ministry starts with their wives and their children and their family, and if they can't steward their family at home, you can't steward a church.

Walter:

Unless God has called you to celibacy, and there are those that God has called to be like Christ. But, for those that God is not. That's where your ministry starts, is with your family. He would always tell me that and because it had been a while since I was in church, I didn't understand it. He would always say my ministry starts with you, your ministry starts with her, your ministry starts with her.

Speaker 3:

And it's biblical. It's in the Bible. I don't remember what scripture it is.

Walter:

We'll have it for you next week. But he did say I think it was Paul that was speaking about that, right, or was it?

Speaker 3:

No, I think it was. It's not Paul.

Walter:

It wasn't.

Speaker 3:

I don't believe it was Paul. Okay, but I could be wrong.

Walter:

I just don't remember. I don't know.

Speaker 3:

But we can find it, we're finding it.

Walter:

Have it next week. But this is really. There's so many things that we could touch on that we it's just it'd be a lot, it'd be hours upon hours of things that we experienced, encounters. I had things God revealed. People ask how you know. There was a plethora of ways that God spoke to me that consistently remind me that she was my wife, including through other people, confirming that it was the case.

Walter:

I'll say one specific situation with Beverly, where I was praying for you in the car and I was weary and I was tired. Listen, everyone, when you are going through that process like that, if God has you go through a process like that, it's a lot, it's taxing, and I got tired. I'm like I don't want to pray for her no more. And beverly was like I'll pray. And I was like okay, cool, and beverly started praying and god told her stop. I told him to pray, not you. And she was like, well, uh, because she was even questioning it. And she was like, well, bro, I can't pray for her it. And she was like, well, bro, I can't pray for her. God just told me not to pray. He told you to pray for her. So you got to pray for her. I said see, y'all don't believe me. I told you, I told you this don't make no sense.

Shanea:

What am I doing? I feel crazy.

Walter:

What's going on. I feel crazy Got what's going on. I feel crazy Got me praying for her day in, day out, all the time Non-stop.

Shanea:

I can't go nowhere, I can't do nothing, I can't watch TV, I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't do nothing.

Walter:

I'm just praying. What is she doing? What is she doing? I wish she would stop. I want my life back.

Speaker 3:

I want my life back. I want my life back. I was in bondage. I was in bondage. I had no clue.

Walter:

I had no clue, I was just tired. But yeah, so that's what it was. How do we end this? We talked about a lot.

Speaker 3:

Yeah, I guess we just pick up where we left off in the next episode. If you guys have any questions or if we needed to elaborate on something else, maybe we could pick it up in the next episode.

Walter:

Yeah, it's a lot. So I don't know it's a summary Well, listen, we thank you all for listening. This is different, and this was a lot, because I don't like to put people in our business.

Speaker 3:

No and we don't, I don't. I don't like to put people in our business. No and we don't, I don't, I don't yeah.

Walter:

So we appreciate you all.

Speaker 3:

But I know this may possibly help someone else in their journey.

Walter:

Prayerfully.

Speaker 3:

Prayerfully.

Walter:

If God wants to share this for somebody.

Speaker 3:

Yeah so.

Walter:

So I still don't know what this episode is going to be named, but we'll see when we put it out. Baby, you want to end this out?

Speaker 3:

Thank you, guys, for listening. We appreciate you for watching. Please subscribe and comment and share this with others. That's it.

Walter:

We'll see you all next week. Be blessed.

Shanea:

All right, bye-bye.

Walter:

Bye.